Today, as I wandered around the aisles of Bookstar aimlessly in pretense of customer greeting/reshelves, I spotted something (or rather, someone) in an aisle that made me stop in my hurried mission, remember that what I needed to accomplish, and rush to finish it, hoping that she would remain when I returned. Of course, on the way, I ran into an acquaintance who wanted to chat. And after attempting to rush away from that, I finally returned to her browsing form and complemented her outfit/did my customer service job.
And why, was I so enchanted by this stranger? For no other reason than the fact that she was dressed in headband to platform mary janes gothic lolita...and looking so adorable in it. I've never actually met anyone in real life who dressed loli, and this was such a lovely surprise. I couldn't really strike up a conversation as I had other work to do and directed her to a section, then wandered back to the cash register, counting chocolate bars (not to pass time! But an assigned task).
Eventually she came up to check out...and I managed to make my interest in lolita clear and gave her my email for potential contact. It was magical. The high point of my day...
Which now, seems a bit pathetic, doesn't it?
The other high point is that my massive order from trendyblanks.com (incredible site that sells AA clothing at ridiculously low wholesale prices) arrived. With a number of things missing and a few things wrong, but I can live with it. Damn it, american apparel, why must you misinterpret so many of your clothes/colors online? They make raspberry look far from the eye blinding bright magenta that it is. It's a little upsetting, but who knows, maybe this will make me finally able to step out the door in...ugh. I can't really bear of think of it.
Still plagued by college indecision, doubt and a sense of hopelessness.
In our brief half hearted discussion of Grendel today, I came to the conclusion that I am probably a nihilist. All the better.