With this discussion on Wardrobe Remix about blocking the perverts and my recent pondering on the subject, I figured I might as well attempt to really articulate my ideas on sexuality and society's aversion to it.
Once upon a time, I blushed at the mention of anything sexual in nature, even felt faintly uncomfortable watching makeout/foreplay scenes on tv shows and movies. I would have never dared to discuss sex openly or at all, never be able to say the names of certain body parts and certain sexual acts. And to say that I am completely comfortable with the idea of sexuality, my own or other people's would be completely misleading. In fact, I'm still as unlikely to talk about such things in person, unless it's not at all meant to be taken seriously or in generalities. So, I'm a hypocrite. Because what I believe is nearly completely opposite from what my actions might convey. I'm convinced that I feel certain ways about sexuality, and I'm convinced that I've learned to be not judgemental of any sort of sexuality. Even the what is usually considered unusual, perverted, taboo.
What I wonder most is why sex is still such a dirty, demented subject, when in reality it is but a natural process, one that is vital to human existence. Yet materials are deemed "obscene" and illegal when it is purely sexual in nature, without artistic or political merit. So easily placing sexuality in a category that is completely forbidden seems a completely illogical act. I think it's only a consequence of mankind's long bond with Biblical morality and ideology that places sex as a sin and never something to be celebrated or enjoy. An idea that has never truly left society.
Sexual fetishes and perversions are among the lowest rungs in terms of acceptable interests in society. Yet a toned down version of said perversions are exactly what's populating the media. Of course, there's massive backlash from conservatives against this horrible influence. At the same time, why is it that we so fear putting out the hidden sexual desires and ideas in the open when we readily accept the subtle suggestions from the media?
The question with women's sexuality and objectification is another that deserves much analysis and debate. Yes, okay, there are tons and tons of groups and classes about femininity and women empowerment and how we should not be objectified as sexual objects, and there actually are probably just as many arguing that the same sexual objectification is a form of power that women have and should use to their fullest advantage, and arguments against that as objectifying men...it's an endless cycle that probably will never see an answer.
Especially not tonight, as I have just realized that it is sunday night and I have tasks that still need to be accomplished. Lately, it seems as if I rarely have enough time to just do all the little things that keep stacking up. Simple to do in theory, but so difficult to accomplish in reality. It does not help that I consistently feel like a horrid failure with the renewed amount of things going wrong with my life. Too drastic and depressing? Most likely. Let's hope that things take a turn for the better, as if this continues, I can only foresee a bleak horrid future where everything that could ever possibly go wrong...including things that should not, logically, go wrong, will go wrong.